Tuesday, August 12, 2003
hey... since when did they change blogspot.. dun recall sia...
walau...
fuck sia today.. it was such a bad day today.. really feel like chopping someone up sia.. this sucks...
first i wake up and i feel so bloddy shitty.. i am dependent on felicia and i hate myself for it. i want to talk to her desperately but there just hasnt been any day that has been right for us to talk abt anything...
then fine...i go sch take car... then i msg her in the car... ok great...
now is wat time already n she never msg me ...fine
im in a self-reflective mode now...(thats wat i told afiah anyways) and then things just had to get worse by farid tellg me that he has a girl now. its fine with me that he has a girl. tt doesnt bug me. im not jealous. im just sad cos all along wat he feels for me is just a charade becos actually all he wants is just a girl. so comes down to the fact that he is desperate. haha... fine.. let him be desperate...
then now i spilled on myself mee rebus...so i have stains...
so then cos of the whole farid thing... i find out that i got no one to accompany me to the PPP thing this sat... god knows wat that is abt...
but ok...no worries... haha..i got a back up.. the best back up i can find... hehe.. i got haekal to go with me! heheh... he is so sweet. heard that i got pushed aside by farid n he was so nice to pick me off my feet....hehe... sayang haekal!!! hehe...
so now im back to having a company for that day..hehhee... yah yaya.... haha.... so im happy abt tt...
rejab says im very pandai.. duh i am!! he says im pandai to ask haekal to go with me..hehe...
and im also happy cos hasan has upped me to be in his evolution grp as an honourary member...aww...haha... :)
but im still sad cos i dun fucking know wat i feel for anyone anymore..n i fucking dunno wat i want.. haiz... wat the f... oh well.... i guess i will have to figure that out slowly... think i shld have a tag board so su can leave me notes n msgs n stuff...love to hear from u su... haiz.. :)
ps. hope everyone has a good life... n dun screw up ur life like mine... fuck guys... they're so easy...
--insignificant lies--
12:15 pm
